I Ain't A Lil' Girl Anymore

Mistakes?

2011-12-01T01:58:00.000+08:00

some people tend to think that their ohh-so-popular to be cool and lovable from everyone,
some people tend to think their not at all.
some people think their half?

well this blog is dead but when i need to talk to myself, hi im here again.

i always tend to think im lovable but not everyone.
i know some people hates me, some people think im trash, some people think im good in a way.

when i was young growing up in church, i felt very loved by everyone even some classmates dislike me and all.
well i didnt really care much about what other people say at the time. i know i was being, well ,quite a bitch when i was in primary and secondary school.
and well im still a bitch now. no one is perfect.

People have ways to think about another person.
is that they actually met the person and know the person well; or
heard rumors about that person; or
saw what that person did.
well i think everyone gets that a lot from well, everyone.

some people like me some people dont.
some friends think im a bitch some think i dont.
some think im helpful some think i dont.
some think im trash some think i dont.

well everyone has their terrible past.
and well so did i.
i've made lots of mistake and hurt lots of people too.
and as a person i have feelings too, i felt guilty for what i did.

sometimes you wish you could change the past so you can get a better future of yourself.
and by better future i mean you're a goody-goody and all.
i wasnt born a goody-goody person.
i was a massive distruction to my parents.
i wouldnt listen to them.
i gave them a lot of problem and till now quite so.

when you realize what people talked about you,
and what they think about you,
you start to realize what did they actually said about you.

i've heard lots about people saying about me.
i was a trash in secondary school.
most of my classmates didnt like me well.
well i dont like them either.
university life was kinda fun and when fun went out of control,
people started to talk behind my back.
saying things i wouldnt like to hear.

When you realize what they said about you, you couldnt turn back time for wht you did and you couldnt tell everyone one by one to explain it.
but when thinking about how the whole world hates you so bad, there is always some people around you loves you the way you are, even your not perfect and the Big one upstairs loves you too.
that what i tell myself wherenever i get down.
when the world hates me, God loves me.
being a christian isnt that bad, positive things started to come back in my head on times i would wanna give up.

im never pretty like those lala mui or those hot model chick whose got a freaking ass body.
no one's perfect anyway.
if you think getting a hot girlfriend is gonna maintain your wallet, you might wanna think again.
well its not what you think why they wanna be with someone that doesnt suits them, there's something with them we will never understand.
and that is their world.
for some reason i think of my group of friends,
why this and this still like this, why dont he or she just get over or why hanging.
things we thought that we could say to help our friends by telling them everything we know about that person we dont want them to be with.
well halo its not your blardy business.
i myself need to get me out of these shitsssss.

life's like that.
you dont let a mistake go through,
how you know it will be a mistake?
it's always full of ups and downs.

there's so much more to say, but it's 2am in the morning and i need some sleep.

so good night.

screw you, you and you

2011-07-23T15:08:00.002+08:00

i cant believe i actually drop some tears for you people who treat me like im invincible.
i already said im sorry.
there was so much to cope and everything was a mess.
come on. you write stuff like that of course i would think otherwise and get mad.
but the point is i did apologize and now what?
im not wroth a shit for you people to care about?
after 1 week plus.
i made an effort today to tweet.
well what you know.
i still go ignore.
i cant believe i actually drop my tears for you freaks.
if im not worth of a friend to you then fine. let it be then.
your not worth my time and care.

ohh you with the most unusual sound.
you think everyone like you??
get a grip would you?
the old gang dislike you and hell knows why you mix with the gang.
you gave all your disapproving look, you think im blind?
helo no one ever liked you.
get lost and ohh the only person whose still so dedicated to you is the one whose always staying beside you like a puppy.

yes you, puppy you.
you changed a lot more than i thought.
the words you wrote i saw it hurt me so bad.
fine that the other two jut scold rude words at me.
but you wrote out the sentence that hurt most of all.
your turning to become like your master.
well i do hope one day you do realize he's an asshole.
all the best in life puppy.

just so frustrated at those people somehow.
i care my friends like my family.
mom's always right.
thats why i thank mom a lot lately.
being there for me and all.
life is tough.
people come in your life and goes out too.
only the true people will stay and stand beside you.
be a good friend to anyone.
you will never know when they will be gone.

xoxo,
felicia

Bersih 2.0

2011-07-11T21:42:00.011+08:00

so as you know lately there has been something going on in Malaysia.
well. as a citizen.
im truthfully deeply hurt when i saw the videos and pictures that posted up all in the web.
the Bersih 2.0 rally is a peaceful rally till the PO PO shot tears gas at the crowd. seriously dude. we just wanted clean fair elections you dont need to kick and beat the crowd. wtf weh.
by watching all the videos.
it hurt so much.

http://www.malaysiakini.com/letters/169584

read something online thats worth reading.
why dont you read it?

quoted.
-Najib : No physical contact with demonstrators. LIES.

PDRM : No tear gas thrown into the hospital. LIES.

Govt is telling lies. Are the rakyat stupid and blind??

FRU clowns acting like they are having fun throwing tear gas.

PDRM samseng having fun kicking and beating the hell out of innocent citizens!!!-

plus.
this bersih 2.0 totally won over the concept of 1Malaysia by Najib our pm.
okay la. i cant say i hate him but after watching a video.
it made me quite piss off.

hello??? what your bumi?
the earth is not made by you or for you lo!!
seriously. malaysia already no face because of him.
government made so much problems for us.
plus the amount of money they ate it all up.
with everything priced up.
why is the country is bankrupt?
where did the money went?
you do the thinking...
hint : our pm wife + diamond 30 carat.

there were more than 10k citizens or maybe over 20k im not sure that join the rally.

when we needed only a few po po's to catch an acid splasher, there was none to be found.
when we wanted a peaceful rally, all were there to be found.
saddng.

and they said that the po po didnt injured anyone.
hello? this picture fake kah?

aunty anne.
pictures tells a thousand words.

this one winrar laa.
Photoshop say that the citizen took a knife to throw at the po po.
==" Photoshop also till so fake. ==

Bersih 2.0 went worldwide with pictures to show the proof.
where it held in different countries and it was peaceful but only in Malaysia it all went haywire.

Brisbane, Australia

Hong Kong, China

Singapore

Taipei, Taiwan

Auckland, New Zealand

Central London, England

New York City, United States

Melbourne, Australia

Ottawa, Canada

Osaka, Japan

Geneva, Switzerland

Cairo, Egypt

Chicago, United States

Los Angeles, United States

San Francisco, United States

i really hope that there would be a change in Malaysia.
the government keep putting lies.
they can control the media but they cannot control us.
no people = no government

twitter is flooded with the Bersih trend.
quoted some.

-The voices of Malaysians singing Negaraku on 9th of July 2011, I'll never forget it!-

- I didn't march @bersih2 but most I can do is spread the heroics of #bersihstories & lies of our Govt to suppress us! Negaraku, Tanahairku-

-What happened over the weekend: Gov suppressed citizens, Police became gangsters, Ministers lied, & Newspapers were biased.-

- Remembering that there were plainclothes police infiltrating the crowd wearing Malaysian wristbands as identifiers.-

- I was a photojournalist for 13 yrs. Covered tons of protests & demos. M'sian police have been beating protesters for years.-

- NOBODY got paid to rally for Bersih2 to ask for transparency in elections n govt. Many got tear gased only-

- No, I wasn't paid to rally but new friends did buy me water when I gasped after the tear gas-

-Home Ministry to punish media for ‘false’ Bersih coverage - http://t.co/WN9hgns
Now they even take away the freedom to share.-

-When I saw innocent rakyat was arrested n forced to sit on d ground,I know we must change! UBAH!-

i dont expect the whole parliment to be banish but really.
malaysia is our country.
would appreciate if the government and the pm wake up a bit.

The Big Two Zero

2011-05-17T12:26:00.020+08:00

hey ya'll there.
sorry for not posting anything.
was well. busy and lazy at the same time.
plus didnt had the internet line for like almost a month.
well it did me good, made me study well for my finals.
well wasnt 100% well. anyways.....
im 20!!! i feel so old omgosh!

they say picture always tell a thousand words.
so trust me.
this post is gonna be hell lot of pictures for you people to look at. :)

well it all started on dinner.
got few friends to had dinner with me at Vegas in kampar.
affordable price for western dish.

it was a nice quite dinner :)
well didnt expect anything and nothing happen. haha.

nom nom nom nom. hungry right?
i'm starving while writing this post.
well.
at 12am sharp i thought you know friends would pop out and sing happy birthday to you and stuff.
well it didnt happen.
i was actually looking through my baby pictures which i scan and actually crying to it.
well a lot of thoughts had been going through in and out of my mind.
im just glad to be here where people love me and where God loves me for who i am.
looking through the pictures just made me realize what a long road i had walk through and there's still a longer path to walk down to.
:)

anyways!!!
when i thought there wasnt any celebration.
my friends were actually planning for it.
no wonder i receive all their birthday text and one kept on text me for i dunno why because im so lazy to text for conversation.

well yes i cried when they appeared.
i was so gam dong!!
:')

yea well when they push the candle inside the cake.
they ask me to bite the candle up while trying to push my had into the cake.
HAR - HAR
they got me ==
thank God the cake wasnt really damage. wooh!

ini FIDO pattern banyak!

snowie so happy that day so many people came and play with her :P

well we move the "parteh" to the basketball court.
well they actually planned to go club for me and all.
but i stop club. i know its hard to "believe"
but i felt gam dong they would organised something for me.
so as a gratitude.
no club doesnt mean we cant drink *winks*
well it was my birthday and it was a special occasion.
didnt drank much though. one cup pour down with so much coke we cant even feel the liquor.
well we wouldnt want anyone to get drunk wont we? *louis goh**cough*

then we scared we were too noisy.
we move to the far end of the taman.
where the houses are not yet done.
went crazy on the road.

with fido break dancing.
to squeezing ourself in a saga.
to pushing the car back and forth.
to become like monkeys.
to playing guitar by the roadside.
to the late early morning...

with everyone reaching mcd.
we couldnt eat!
pasal mcd was cleaning up till 7am.
it was like 5am?
so we decided to balik :)
well everyone was extremely tired.

due to the not enough time of sleeping...
i missed my 11am bus to KL.
was like to get to KL to see my mom.
sat the 1pm bus to bukit jalil then switch like 3 trains to get to PJ.
reach PJ like around 5.30pm. my god.
well mom bought me to T.G.I fridays.
had a super nice dinner there!
with the staff singing happy birthday to me in a different way.
made me sand on the chair, blow a candle far away from me.
it was a nice experience!! :D

me and mummy :)

me and my bestie :)

got a giant sundae caramel from T.G.I. Fridays.
went dimsum in the morning in PJ.
had coffee bean in the afternoon in KLCC.
meet up with Eric for a while.
and saw Chee Han unintentionally haha.
it was a great trip :)

then liang yee text me and scold me why all of a sudden i went to KL on my birthday.
say i ruin their plan for me. awww :)
well after 4 days i had another slice of cake from Liang yee and bee kee they all :)
their the ones who always been there for me since sem 1 :')

well.. i receive a lot of birthday gifts!!

:)
well i wanna thank so many people!!
my mommy for bringing me around in KL and feed me with delicious food :)
the moral gang..
fido, ah mok, mikky, jack, ganfu, sam, lin yun, ying ying, wai yee, elaine, louis, weng hong, keat siong, and whoever else i lack :)
my ultimate gang..
denise, lun, mel, phil, alex, clara, calvin, syuen, eric..
and the people on fb, i got like 403 wishes!
well if it wasnt for fb to remind you guys wouldnt remember too right? haha.
my awesome housemates..
yinli, yucca, venessa, snowie!
well whoever i forgot to thank,
thank you so much for remembering, even though a sms or a fb comment or a call.
means so much to me. God bless all :)

xoxo,
fel~

F1 Sepang Circuit

2011-04-20T15:47:00.013+08:00

this is a super duper late post.
due to my modem got struck by lightning few weeks back.
couldnt online at all.
and it sucks.

alright. enough with the chitchat.
so i work as a promoter for a company selling radio headsets in Sepang.
where the Formula 1 is held!
man i was so close to see all the drivers in person weh :(
pasal have to work if not can line up to get their autographs.
damn.

anyway!!!!
pictures are proof :D

first time in sepang. excited like hell!!

the race track

dont know what this was, but i know there's air cond inside and so is the atm machine.

Winston promoters.

there were a lot of merchandise selling out. bought one from here. cost me a fortune =s

this is our booth. we aint standing under the shades. we are standing under the hot sun! poor thing a lot of them got sunburn so bad. im lucky i didnt get any xD

they got like outdoor activities.
like a lot of them.

HOT CHICK ALERT!!!

Then there was autograph session which i missed because i had to work. but the crowd is crazy!

finish work on the 2nd day so we rush to watch the race!! for free!! :D

it was so hard to capture because the cars were so darn fast!!
at last i made quite a number of new friends.
and everyone although got tired and sunburn, we all had a good time.

and Zoe got 4 tickets to see Rain's concert after the race. too bad i had to rush back to kampar, but in the end i miss the train also pasal jam in Sepang for an hour and a half ==

well. it was a very nice experience.
made a lot of new friends.
got some work experience.
well it was fun.
and you get paid! :D

see you again next year!!!

Happy Birthday Denise!

2011-04-06T17:54:00.006+08:00

well well.
personally dedicated this post to you darling.

and someone camwhore a lot with my camera yesterday ehh? haha.
well well.
where to start?
its your 21st birthday today!!
your old. HAHAHA.
joking :) you know i dont mean that.

where to start where to start?!?
wanna thank that lil' faggot Eric though.
if it wasn't for him/his farewell.
i wouldn't had know you.
yes you stupid faggot Eric im thanking you, don't cry.

and that was our first picture together.
ehh when was it again?
ohh yea! 4th June 2010 xD
the day we all know each other.
Lun, Eric, You, Me, Melvin, Alex and yes well we should ignore the J-fella in this post :)
btw eric and melvin was drunk so bad. we keep making fun of them.
poor thingsssss xD

well if it wasn't for taeyang on my phone as the wallpaper.
we wouldn't be shouting screaming giggling like little girls.
and from that on wards, how little we know we had so much in common.
yes i shall thank Taeyang in person when he comes to Malaysia xD

we started hanging out the next day and we kept sticking together ever since!
and lun use to call us lesbian partners haha.
then we had more booze sections, 4am mcd sections in gopeng, cameron trips.
all thanks to lun also :)
then we did manicure's, eat cakes, lok lok, cc, walking around new town, or just hanging out in my room talking trash.
funeh how time flies isn't it.
its been 10 months already but its like we have been bestie's for life.

then there was the time i got so angry because it was obvious that the whole gang went everywhere without me.
due to that stupid fella.
and im still epicly sorry that i got mad at you.
because you know why lah.
but it all turn out pretty good in the end anyways :)

first time went shopping with you yesterday and in the end...
we didnt got anything for ourselves HAHA :D
well anyhow.
i wanna thank you.
for taking care of me.
feeding meeeeeee.
and well cared for me.
and im so sorry fo times i made you cry.
or made you piss off.

your 21 now.
boleh masuk casino.
hope that everything you do, you will succeed in life.
well i really really hope you could stay and teman me but naww.
hat would be selfish.
faster graduate then work then belanja me makan xD
imma evil~

and hopefully no bitches get in our way.
always be good friends for life.
like the girls in sex in the city :)
and mindfucked ourselves with barbie movies.
giggling all the way down :)

well hopefully this gang will last too.
and its my bad for bringing people in.
its us then its only us.
no more extra include.
its just isnt the way it is.

Well i just wanna say
thank you for being there for me.
taking care of me and stuff.
and hope you had an awesome 21st birthday.
by waking you up and blurring around HAHA.
well i hope and wish all the best to you my dear.
and that we will always be friends for life.
till the end :)

love you lots.
xoxo.

a day out with the bestie ♥

2011-04-06T17:30:00.005+08:00

alright.
i finally have something to blog about.
ohh my lawrd.
dunno how much i have been suffered through to not blog about everything or everywhere i go.
well basically i didnt went anywhere.
:(

i didnt went to Shayne's wedding.
i didnt went to Redang.
due to cannot find replacement and my forbidden from my mother, i just burned my rm300 for the Redang trip.
yes.
im still very bump out about it.
i can use that money to buy big bang's new album.
now i have none.
fml.
fml betul betul.
okay whatever. i promise myself im gonna earn hell lot of money in the future.

So.
it was a day out with Denise and Louis only actually.
and well my mouth was stupid.
and well eventually Zoe tag along.
it was well suppose to be only the 3 of us.
meaning Louis, Denise and me because Denise said that it was suppose to be our Pre-birthday celebration together.
well, it still was.

So when we reach Ipoh, what to eat?!?
Zoe said there's one nice place to eat which is held in First Garden.
hell i never went there before and it was so freaking far!
well. okay. the BLUEBERRY CHICKEN CHOP wasn't disappointed. so okay.
ze place is called HEAVEN LIFE CAFE.

ignore my fugly blackberry. and yes it taste delicious.

Denise's mia baked cheese seafood spagetti. Yumeh!

The drinks. are FABULOUS.
mine is on the left which is called the Sunset Lover.
Denise got Angel and Devil.

yea so practically this is my lunch yesterday.
had wedges instead of fries. naise.

and yes because my camera is back.
we all camwhore like mad.
come on...
its been 4 months without me!

so we headed to jusco to shop.
in the end.
i didnt bought anything.
which is a good thing to me.
Denise didnt saw anything she like.
come on its ipoh not KL.
Zoe bought lots of things eventhough she's partially broke i guess.
Louis bought PDI clothing and cost him a fortune.

almost heading out from ipoh.
Lun called Denise.
so we went MOMO Steamboat.
to tell the truth.
one more steamboat i really like puke.
had too much this sem .___.

So waiting for lun, ah hao, waiwai, ah kah and his gal to arrive.
we ate first :D

after lun they all arrive.
the table was full with food.
gotta get the pictures from ah hau and ah kah. :D
because they use DSL-LAH and mine was just a cranky old lil' digital camera :)
it was a fun day till something/someone sort of made me piss off.
ohh well.
continue the post about Denise's birthday :)
which is today!! go wish her everyone!!

hectic sem

2011-03-25T11:12:00.002+08:00

wow.
its been a crazy sem.
Degree is really not easy.
really need to put a lot of effort like mad.
and im taking up accounting course so yea.
basically im on a dead road.

24/2/11 Business Law Mid Term
26/2/11 Microeconomics Mid Term 1
05/3/11 Quantitative Techniques Mid Term 1
16/3/11 Financial Accounting Framework Mid Term
19/3/11 Microeconomics Mid Term 2
22/3/11 Financial Accounting Framework Presentation
24/3/11 English For Business Test
26/3/11 Quantitative Techniques Mid Term 2
27/3/11 Shayne's Wedding
29/3/11 Easter Night Musical Drama
31/3/11 English For Business Presentation
02/4/11 Cameron Trip
09/4/11 Part Time work in Sepang till 10/4/11
11/4/11 Muet Exam for Speaking
15/4/11 Birthday
16/4/11 Muet Exam for Reading, Writing and Listening
16/4/11 UTAR Ball

i forgot when i start my finals but i know i'll be fnishing it on 12/5/11

hectic sial.
see where got time to blog!
no la.
actually i have things to blog but i cant and all.
aih.
well well life must go on.
:)

BIG BANG IS BACK!!

2011-03-01T20:07:00.008+08:00

okay im slow on this.
sorry la.
been busy decorating the room.
and it looks superb!
will blog about it tomorrow,

NOW.
lets talk about BIG BANG xD

the boys are back with the 4th korean mini album!!
and the songs.
are AWESOME!!
couldn't stop repeating it ever since i got it. XD
even before mid term i have to listen to it for like the last time xD

here's the link if ya wanna download.
BUT PLEASE.
VIP's buy the original one okay!!!
:D

Big Bang 4th Mini Album

here's the tracklist of the mini album.

01. Intro (Thank You & You)
Lyrics by: G-Dragon
Composed by: G-Dragon, Choice 37
Arranged by: Choice 37

02. Hands Up
Lyrics by: G-Dragon, rap by T.O.P
Composed by: G-Dragon, E. Knock
Arranged by: E. Knock

★ 03. Tonight (Title Track)
Lyrics by: G-Dragon, rap by T.O.P
Composed by: G-Dragon, E. Knock
Arranged by: Choi Pil Gang

04. Somebody to Love
Lyrics by: G-Dragon, rap by T.O.P
Composed by: G-Dragon, Ham Seung Chun, Kang Ook Gin
Arranged by: Ham Seung Chun, Kang Ook Gin

05. What is Right
Lyrics by: G-Dragon, rap by T.O.P
Composed by: G-Dragon, D.J Murf, Peejay
Arranged by: D.J Murf, Peejay

06. Cafe
Lyrics by: G-Dragon, rap by T.O.P
Composed by: G-Dragon, D.J Murf, Peejay
Arranged by: D.J Murf, Peejay

you guys have to watch the parody they did.
OMGOSH.
top kiss seungri and GD in like the same day of the acting. HAHA
epic win la.

cute aren't they? xD
throughout the whole parody i keep laughing non-stop.
till my housemates wonder what happen to me xD

well. my collections of Big Bang isn't much.
despite i just started to collect last year.
pfffttt.
Good Charlotte's stuff also not much for me to collect :(
well mostly collect the CD's baa. easy to find. LOL

i don't know why i bought this tell me goodbye CD.
the tracklist is like only 2 songs ==
but anyway got stuff inside so not bad laa xD

my Tae Yang Deluxe Edition album.
i thought i can never get this. ==
they gave t-shirt inside you know and its still in there.
i dont dare take it out xD

and this picture with the signature comes in with the deluxe edition.
how can i not be happy? :D

and this is the international album. and it comes with a mega poster!!

taddaaa!
its perfectly stick on my wall xD

and this is GD & TOP album.
i love the cover.
so classic!!!

now i just need to get.
Seungri's VVIP album.
and.
Big Bang's 4th MINI ALBUM!!!!!
ARGGHHH.
who can go kl buy for me pleasseeeeeeeee :)
its in times square xD

VIP
x)

okay laa.
this is the official video of Tonight by Big Bang.
they finally officially release it xD
hell yea i saw taeyang and i fainted xD
woohoo!

and you guys wanna see my room right? its done :)
i let you guys see the pictures xD

yes the hearts i cut it myself.
the tree i made it myself.
the lights i pasang myself.
the board i did it myself.
all is about DIY.
and its fun.
with the result it came out.
im happy everytime i see my room now xD
the board is still empty.
but it'll fill up through the months xD

anyone wants me to deco their room.
im here to do it!
but i charge lah kays xD

God bless :)

chinese new year 2011

2011-02-25T12:55:00.010+08:00

well. what to say here.
CNY. its been pretty boring.
despite the fact i got scolded and all.
and which i still really can't get over it.
and my parents are stalking my blog and my tumblr or anything else im using.
and calling me and text me.
which makes me kinda paranoid.
because they dont do this.

**skip**

alright. cny pictures are up.
thank you to ah han for the pictures.
but i really hate to say this but i wanna say it also.
canon dslr sucks like shyt.
soweeeeee.
imma nikon lover :D

its not that i hate my hometown.
its just.
the friends there.
im not complaining.
im just not close with them.
the girls i mean.
we just don't click.
thats why im more close with the brothers.
we have much more in common.
and my parents dont like it.
seriously.
i really dont know what to do.
if i have to choose my friends.
ask me to stay away from them.
conclusion.
i have no more friends.
those study geeks are really study geeks which can drive me crazy.
okay whatever.
back to topic is.
the girls are all girlish like and bimbo's.
i am sorry but you guys are.
=="
well not all. some of you.
well in short. im an outcast.
pfffttt.
its my blog.
i like what i want to write.
so you dont like me just stfu and get out.

the more im trying to be good.
the more im hating myself.
i dunno why la.
now im getting myself so busy.
with all the assignments and midterms and presentations coming up.
my whole week is damn pack.
imagine. 8am till 8pm in campus.
it is seriously crazy.
or in the library for 6 hours.
kanasai.
ANDDDDDD.
plus the people who knows that i cant go anywhere now.
they all came down and find me.
and i have to slot time for them.
aren't they sweet :)
with the non stop visiting and the assignments and stuff.
and with the decorations of my room.
i have to say.
i barely have time to touch my laptop.
okay lah. assignment is a must to touch because you'll need it.
fml for im so busy and so freaking tired.
but its a good thing because i dont want to think about anything else.

i know what my parents want in me.
you know those girls.
who just stayed at home.
and cook.
no drama in life.
get a christian boyfriend with a good christian background.
get married and have kids.

=="

but i like my life with drama.
i dunno why.
qi kek gua.
life has its ups and downs.
we just have to go through all of it.
if your life is like that simple.
its weird!
because He wanted you to learn how to deal with things.
like a trouble daughter like me.
pfffttt.
im not as trouble as those hollywood people.
a.k.a miley cyrus and taylor momsen.
show tits and all. sohai.

and my cf friends asked me why i took this accounting subject.
i dunno why the hell everyone keep asking me about this.
i am so damn tired of answering everyone!!
its not that i hate it or whatsoever.
i dont 100% like it either.
but what you want me to do.
I AM CONTROLLED.
i am told to do this and that.
imma robot.
she say i should pray about it and ask my parents again and hopefully they will changed their point of view.
HAIH.
its not i dont want to try.
but i know my parents. they want accounting girl and thats it.
you guys know me well enough.
im good and better in other things.
like PR or event things and stuff.
but what to do my parents dont see that in me.
accounting and accounting it is. fullstop.
no more discussion on that.

seriously im tired of all of this.
of getting calls from my parents all the time asking me where i am.
its not i hate it.
its really frustrating.
i know they love me and all.
and they still treat me like a kid.
i dont fucking mind.
but it makes me somehow i wanna just switch off my phone so bad.
i just hate people keep calling me already.
and asking me why i took accounting.
are you serious?
are you really taking this course.?
its hard you know.
you sure you can handle it?

fuck.
this.
world.

i am in depression seriously.

just leave me alone!!!!!!

thoughts wandering

2011-02-13T12:01:00.005+08:00

well well.
what's been going on.
nothing much practically.

that i have a psycho tutor.
my best friend and her boyfie argue.
another girlfriend of mine got attached.
got asked by some crazy people in MCD.
couldnt't go where DJ Eva T was spinning because i'm not allowed to.
gain weight.
some asshole lied.
couldn't drink with the brothers because of period and i'm not allowed to as well.

you know.
at times when you had a hard time with your family.
you usually turn to your friends.
a boyfriend would be good, he would hug away the problems.
but no.
im not allowed to get a boyfriend either.

hmm.
life's fucked up as usual.
after having so much fun and getting caught red-handed.
and you couldn't blog about anything because you havent been going anywhere.
by the fact you were scared you will get caught so you didnt went.
and there's nothing else for you to write.

okay.
this is dilemma shit.

i'm not allowed to have a boyfriend.
i'm not allowed to drink.
i'm not allowed to simply go anywhere.
i'm not allowed to club.
ok laa. they didnt directly said that.
but i understand through their indirectly speakingggggg.

i'm not complaining.
i'm just listing it out.
had a lot of thoughts.
and i am actually yes. a lucky girl.
i have a family and all.
where some people lost their mother.
or some having divorce parents which gives them a headache.

but i dunno.
maybe i'm rebel because im the first child.
and my mom didnt expected me in the first place.
so yea. turn out i am a rebel.
a hard headed rock who doesn't listens to them.
shoot me for i am bad.

well life hasnt been going too well.
what to do.
you still have to walk it through the devil days.
and i have a major psycho tutor which i dont want to see for the following weeks.
basically she's got mental problem.
which i dont know why utar is still keeping her.
i dont care if she's got a master in any shit.
she's crazy!!
get her out of here and put her in tanjung rambutan.
for the sake of everyone.

*sigh*
dad called. ask me whether i went to church.
i said no.
seriously. i dont want to wake up like 7am in the morning.
feel like going to class rather than a church.
which its giving myself a wrong idea.
he told me to go to this Calvary City Church and all.
he's really pushing me going to church.
wants me to repent and every shit.
its very obvious he's trying to help me and control me at the same time.
and i hate being control.
who doesn't hate?

*sigh* again.
it's not that i dont like. fucuk lor.
*sigh* *sigh* *sigh*
i feel fraus.
i dunno why.
i just do.

somemore tomorrow its valentine's day.
no i dont emo because i dont have a date.
its because i dont know what to do.
since all my girlfriends are gonna hav their dates and all.
its just. sien. you know.
and my class cancel that day.
i really dunno what to do.

been having pre-valentine celebration. TWICE. with denise.
with secret recipe cake and all.
*sigh*
been sort of listening to much of rock songs lately.
i cant help but Jared Leto has a sexy voice.
okay. off topic.

well hope you guys have a nice valentine.
and i hope i have one but i know i will never have it.
so whatever.
good day.

p/s : aren't the pictures great? their from tumblr. view my tumblr if ya'll have time. many thanks. http://feliciagrace.tumblr.com/

haih.

2011-02-04T10:32:00.000+08:00

its CNY.

and im fucking stress.

i just dont know what they want.

photoshoot

2011-02-01T22:02:00.006+08:00

pfffttt. haih.
i damn emo when i listen to this song.
30 seconds to mars - Hurriane
i dunno why la. it made me think about what happen in my past.
and all the shit that i've been doing.
well of course mainly the bad one's.
a bor why i emo.

cny is around.
but i dont have that cny feel.
mainly because the problems that havent been settle.
cause me so much thinking and fear of my parents.
wherever they talk i just shut the hell up.
i can never defend for myself in front of them.
mainly is how i have been raise by them to respect them i think.

i've been slap by my mom once when i had braces on.
so yea my gum bleed.
and since that day whatever my parents scold me or whatsoever.
i never fought back.
i just shut the hell up and went into the room.
the room is like my safehouse. lol

ok lah. this post is about the photoshoot i promise i will blog about.
fuck it i look so fat.
mainly because of the angle.
kanasai.
so please do ignore my chubby face, fat thighs.
thank you plox :)

shooting for 5 hours is tiring okay.
and i ruin my forever21 boots. urgh.
*emo-es*
and hate it mango look so fucking better than me.
because she stick.
HAHAHA.

credits to mr Chok Eu-Tjin.
for the hard work.

and yes. i hang out with this gal name Bernice from Ipoh for the weekend.
because i don't wanna freak myself out alone in kampar.
and well. she's nice to talk to.

i admit i was jealous about her last time.
we had issue's. okay.
so basicly we went and watch dunno what shit movie call Faster.
okay la. dwyane johnson inside boleh tengok la.
the killer dude was smoking hot.

we slept out the whole day on sunday.
had our first meal that day around 8pm at secret recipe.
and i had to leave around 7am the next morning.
tiring shyt.

and hey i got myself another babe! lol.
i've been getting to many babes.
very hard to keep track of everyone ehh.

don't emo kays sayang.
although i know im far in terengganu.
but i'll be back in a week time.
and hell yes i wanna go back early if i could.
plans plans plans.
dont think so much kays?
love you xoxo.

well happy cainis new year.
tomorrow tuan yuan fan liao.
so go back to your families.
have a great dinner.
and a great chinese new year.

much love,
xoxo,
Felicia

over liaw

2011-01-29T10:11:00.005+08:00

well well hello everyone.
i think i might stop blogging.
i work so hard on this piece of shyt.
trying to let people know well.
how a uni student life is.

it is great and all.
but i think my parents know about my blog now.
and there's some stuff i cant post anymore.
and because i kept using foul languages and stuff.
fucked that.

okay so well. basically this might be my last post.
and yes i know its sad. lol.
but what to do laa.

my parents dont approve what i like to do.
a lot of things.
like clubbing is a satan's place.
okay la. dont wanna bring that shit up.

but i will try and update my blog on any events that are happening around.
and will try to get pictures from my friends who attending.
so i can blog about it and let you guys read!
not a bad idea right?

okay mom and dad.
from now onwards if i blog anything about club.
please do not say i went there.
i just take those pictures from friends okays.

no more party girls life *sniffs*

im just trying to make this blog stay alive. lol.
i mean im not rich and go everywhere around the world like Cheesie.
that is something i would love to do.
blog every piece of shit wherever i go.

alright enough. pictures of the past :)

DJ Voice and DJ Funkzu

mist packed as always.

DJ Monkey

DJ Funkzu

Funkzu, Monkey, Terry.

support MKFZ!!

oohhh yea. i did a photoshoot with mr. Chok Eu-Tjin.
i like his name lah.
so after his done with the pictures i'll upload it.
and well write something for my bloggie of course :)

and well 3 apuh neh neh and a hot chick came over the other day to pass me my stuff.
yes aku bodoh ter-left my ic.
but i got it back now thank GOD.

one snoring. one flu-ing. one coughing.
abuh. me and bernice tak boleh tidur :/

pfffttt. cute right. pegang the doggie.
ok lah. end it end it.
wanna go cari Bernice.
she confirm still tidur mati.

and cainis new yah is around.
i dunno why i dont have that spirit lifting or whatever you call it.
but all ends well.

HAPPY CAINIS NEW YAH GUYS!!!

love life. live it well.
xoxo,
felicia~

p/s : trying myself not to sound emo on this post :)

goodbye 2010, hello 2011

2011-01-09T21:32:00.013+08:00

okay. i should have blog about this like on the 1st of jan of this yearrrrrr.
so soweeeeeee because.
i was going back to mai hometown!! :D
a hell fun of a night i had on the day of counting down new year.
and i manage to countdown not like christmas lololololol.

ok laaa.
whats been happening in 2010??
well i had to say.
it was a hectic year for me.
sibek luan. haha.

JANUARY

from what i remembered.
around the 1st week of january.
dad found out i've been clubbing.
and he scold me over the phone.
didn't talk to me for 1 week and i emo.
didnt had money to eat for that whole week.
rm10 to tahan 1 week is not easy yo.
i got so furious over my hometown lang.
i private every shit i use.
and learn that.
private stuff cannot tell the world. lololol.
then got help out in the CF baking.
and the Welcoming Night.
and got in a fight with my 4th ex?
ex are dumbasses. thats why their call EX.
okay lah chill now no more hate liao.

FEBRUARY

got exam that week and i still blog. wtf.
then wen back to hometown for Chinese New Year!!!!
first time make up for cny.
and my relatives see me make up they diam 7.
usually horr those aunties aunties laa.
will always say meee very what laaa and stuff.
now i pretty then your daughter then you don't say shit.
i izzzzzz so much win! hoho.
thennn.
results out i cry because still cannot pass.
fml.

MARCH

i had the thought that i was the worst daughter ever.
i couldn't be a smart student they wanted.
i always got scolded by them.
i cannot be "the daughter" they wanted.
i menge-stress-kan myself by thinking all these shit.
stupid..
no one is perfect.
but i never give up trying to be one daughter you can be proud of.
im still trying my best in my studies and its not what i want pun.
and its the month.
i felt in love with taeyang. lol
then non stop following news about him.
wtf stalker.
ok lah. march is pretty much about these.

APRIL

WOOHOO!!
my birthday month!! :D
i had the best birthday celebration like ever!!!!
i got like 3 cakes in a night!
i got caked.
i got drowned.
caked + drowned = yuck.
you feel sticky on your whole body!!
and its the month i lost my baby LG ice cream T.T
damn i dunno how it hilang in a room lor walao.
i so freaking upset because i lost that phone weh. haih.
then i remembered me, liang yee, bee kee and siang rong.
went yumcha at 3am. then cc at 5am. then dim sum at 8am?
10am sleep. 3pm wake up go lunch.
5pm went back study.
5.30pm no electric. wtf.
i miss those crazy days. HAHA

MAY

wahahaha. taeyang's birthday.
ok laaa. it doesnt relate anything.
but i like him ma.
perfect bf material.
nothing much in May.
went back hometown again.
mother's day!!
at that time i really miss home.
dunno why.
home is always still the best. :)

JUNE

this month. wow.
a lot of things happen.
got to know this one gang.
lun, denise, eric, alex and the others as well :)
its been a hell ride with you guys.
booze almost every week?
and and and.
i hate this month too.
granny pass away :(
*sigh*
mama i sibek miss you :(
no one like you can pray till make me sibek gam dong and cry.
and its the month.
i got my heart broken.
and cried for the whole july month.

JULY

wow this month.
i emo like crazy man.
class dont want go.
test luan luan do.
presentation sui bian.
assignment didnt take part.
i practically had the worst time of my life.
this is what happen when you fall in love with the wrong person.
and now there's still a pat of me.
still not letting go.
but maybe 5% only gua.
never in my life i would fall in love again i think.

AUGUST

hmm.
i really pulled myself together.
join to be Hillsong United's helper and all.
and yea they rock Ipoh!!!
their coming again i heard.
this 11th.
but aiya. im still in terengganu :(
then i attend this Jaeson Ma event.
WOW!
he is one damn POWER MAN!!!
totally change my life around a bit.
didnt make me emo terus!!

September

went to Cameron.
and i cried that night in Cameron.
because going with the gang.
he sure go along lor bring his gal or whatsoever.
whatever. i dont give a shit.
ha my heart once again broken.
haih. jin sien geh ler.
then went back hometown.
then kena parents scold for going to Jaeson Ma's event.
wtf.
well cannot blame them.
they dunno what i've gone through.
your daughter emo banyak lamaaaaa lor.
then got a heart to heart talk with mom.
plan to tell her like everything.
but nahh. it wasn't the right time at all.

OCTOBER

this month.
i had a decision to make.
whether to stop my studies and go over to UK.
or continue my studies and dai.
i wanted to go over to UK.
but alah.
try once again finish foundation and see.
the reason why i didnt wanna continue is because i dont wanna see that jerk who break my heart la.
i know if i there i sure hoping of seeing him.
which will make me even hopeless.
but eventually.
i stayed in Malaysia .___. fml
and my cousin pass away.
haih. first lost my granny then my cousin.

NOVEMBER

never knew.
went back to kampar life got better!
went to UTAR hallowen Party and MOS in Sunway area.
but.
i lost a great friend.
Chloe.
i really still miss you love.
you were always there for me and support me in everything i do.
i still can't believe your not around.
ll now i can still think of her and emo and cry.
granny, cousin then friend.
walao 2010 really. ==
but still.
i was so busy with a lot of plannings.
with the assignments, test and presentations.
moral campaign.
and Christmas Night.
wow!!

DECEMBER

last month of last year!!
i wrote a post of how im blessed.
with all of you guys!!
then Alviss Kong pass away also.
aiyo.
2010 really ==
then went to Freedom event.
then get to know so many people!
then celebrate Christmas then New Year!!'

WOW!! what a year for me.
haha. and i hope this year is gonna be more epic!!
with travelling and all! :D
no money also seii find how to get money ahh.
so what have you been doing in the past year?
was it sad or happy or anything you couldnt imagine?
i hae my ups and downs and i know so do you.
so we work hard, have fun throughout this new good year alright!!

wishlist for 2011

travel to Bali

travel to Thailand

travel to Redang

meet big bang, attend their concert

meet so much more people that i can know!

get that Olympus EPL-1 i wanted

try and get good results (this is never gonna happen haha)

lose weight ==

ahh well it isnt much.
but yea their hard to achieve. ARGHH.
well.
all the best in life to all of you.
its a brand new year.
a brand new start.
life is great.
live it well guys.

xoxo
felicia~

Freedom KL, Christmas 2010

2010-12-28T13:24:00.009+08:00

am gonna freaking combine two posts yo.
its gonna be another freaking long post!!

well well.
It's 28th today.
4 more days.
this 2010 year is gonna end.
what you have been doing this year?

i've learn a lot.
way lots of stuff.
see stuff much more wider now.
know much more stuff.
be mature and childish in things.
meet hell lots of different friends.
made lots of mistakes.
screwed up a lot of times.
but ohh. all went well in the end :)

and hey i just finish my Moral paper today!! HAHA.
tricky tricky questions.
tisk tisk.
lucky got stardeee :P
well 3 more papers to go and hello new year eve parttyyyyyy!
and well its gonna be the end of 2010 :)

mad year it has been.
i just love my life so much now.
know how to treasure it well.
hopefully God will give me a good bf when im 21 to lock me down.
*teehee*
been having too much fun!!!

so tell me.
what have you been doing this year?
Did Santa put you on his nice or naughty list?
comments please leave at the chatbox :)
am still working on the comment box that you guys can leave on every post i post.
LOL.

alright.
start blog.

FREEDOM KL

so freedom KL is like a massive event compare to what they did in Ipoh.
but. all malay.
i was. well. shock.
i thought they wasn't suppose to drink and stuff you know.
ohh well.
but their cool in a way!
Don't get me wrong.
i've got hell lot of malay friends around.

so as usual we got free flow beers.
coke, 100 plus etc.
but in a plastic cup. wtf.
in Ipoh at least use glass la.
first time see dou. kns.

after the event,
head to Desire then Gosh.
Ssense forget me wtf.

picture tell a thousand words. so imma let them do the wordings. LOL.
credits to andy again.

DJ Droolotte Tasha

Thrillseekers

DJ Fono

DJ Trent Mcdermott

ok lah. i had fun la.
but not all laa.
someone laa.
make me moody sial that night.
zzz.
note to self.
don't put expectations on other people.
because they will just disappoint you in the end.
zzz.

Christmas 2010

so usually during Christmas.
i would be going to Church.
come back open presents which were under the Christmas tree.
eat turkey for dinaahh.
go over to May's house and lepak.
helping out on Church's Christmas event.

well what to do im in kampar.
FML.
stupid utar made my exam timetable in between new year and Christmas.
damn bijak shyt.
so i celebrate kat ipoh.
last year celebrate with lik xiong.
tau he got bad impression of me liaw.
so yea. zzz.

this year. ok saja lah.
know a lot DJ peng you!

DJ Ssense. DJ Mintz. from Gosh.

DJ Soya.

damn love this picture. because of da middle finger. HAHAHAHAHA.

hey sexy lady!

yea laa.
other pictures you go my fb and see la.
cannot post too much here also.
ok laa,
i bluff.
its not that long.
because im lazzzzzyyyyyy.

i've got like 3 more papers to go.
fml.
i hate exams.
who create this exam shyt should like die.
ohh wai~
he died-ed oledi.
wtf.

bimbo shyt man.
this is the reason when you hang out with this girl too long.

DENISE JUSTINE LEE
lol.
ok laa.
i admit i miss you.
you man man hang out with your sloppy man.
see you next seem babe. lol.

and!!
belum end lagi.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHEE HAN!!!!! :D

wahahahaha.
dedicate one space for you :P
your birthday is.
the starbucks i still owe you.
so wait for me to get back there.
then we hang out okay?
ask that bodoh mia RW come out also.
i wanna whack his head for being mean to me. lol.

so okay.
habis blog.
enjoy your few last days of year 2010.
and prepare for a new year 2011.
life is always a blessing.
live it well guys :)
xoxo.

Freedom Ipoh

2010-12-24T12:02:00.007+08:00

so me and my gals.
and 1 boy.
attend this Freedom event in Ipoh.

how did i know about this?
Sandy told me. :)
she came down for a few days and hang out together in KAMPAR. lol.
kampar is dead boring i dunno why she liked it so much.

so Sandy told me about this event because Mist club DJ funkzu will be there.
and i heard it was free flow whole night.
free flow worr.
why dont want go right?
so attend lorrr.

Winston girls! lol.
work for this shit for 2 weeks also.
not bad.
but selling in a kopitiam and having your legs to stand for 3 hours and not move around. it kills.

ahahaha. kena snap ==

i have got to say. the setting was damn nice.
with the UV light effect and all.
spectacular.

DJ Funkzu at the back yo.

yeng seii~ haha.

DJ Funkzu and DJ Afro from Taiwan.
their chinese slang.
*thumbs up*

so throughout the event.
we went in.
and we were like.
wtf. why all uncle aunty d ==
but it was entertaining.
you see uncles go up the stage and dance.
aunty got drunk. LOL.
they even ask the DJ to change Jolin's song.
wtf wehh.

credits to Andy for taking all the pictures that night.
am missing my babe Sandy who went back to sabah for 3 months. ARGH.

So today is Christmas Eve.
what are you guys up to?
I am gonna drown myself with books.
fark UTAR for making my exam timetable.

Miss the times where you gt to gather with your family.
have turkey for dinner and all.
caroling.
Christmas events and all.
and why do we have Christmas?
It's all about Jesus yo.

well dont wanna brag no more.
anyhow you celebrate your Christmas.
God bless every single one of you.
xoxo.

G-Dragon & T.O.P - High High

2010-12-16T00:41:00.002+08:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
the video is out!!!
how caan you not love them.
bahh i do Taeyang a lot but he's inside as well!! :D
T.O.P looks stunning with the white hair.
GD looks well. fashionable as ever! :D
saw seungri inside as well.
didnt notice daesung though.
thumbs up for them!! :D
Big Bang FTW!!

live your life well people~

2010-12-10T09:48:00.006+08:00

R.I.P Alviss Kong

i think this year has just gone nuts.

you'll see death everywhere and those are your friends in it!!

and someone told me dunno what quota.

=="

well.
everyone knows.
some dude just jumped off a 14th floor.
suicide.
landed on a car.
and well.
he couldn't make it.
and it was all because of LOVE.

well.
people tend to do stupid stuff.
when your stupidly madly in love.
did you guys read the note he left?
touching.
i've been there once.
but not to the extreme of suiciding.

unlike someone i knew who /wrist in front of her bf.
well. all these are just plain dumb.
but still i pity Alviss.
it's like how much you wanted someone that badly.
but you can't have it.
and when you got to know that particular someone doesn't love you anymore or those kinda shit.

LOVE really does hurt at times.
and it sucks at times too.
but it can be perfect, magic, sparkle moments.
ahh.
when you found the right one.
eventually it'll happen.

Alviss is like so damn young.
why laaa he go do such a thing.
the girl. Binlui.
lagi young =="
i bet she doesn't even really know what love is about.
bahh. now that he's gone.
that girl's life is gonna be ending up in misery.

well.
we can't say its 100% her fault though.
and we can't blame it all on Alviss.
pity both of them.
one still living and one gone.
you know they actually look quite nice together.

give the girl some space mates.
she private like everything!
well of course lor.
almost everyone blame her what.
even before she private her blog.
they spam the chatbox like mad.

he die "LIKE" a national hero.
everywhere in facebook and newspaper.
pity the family as well.
raise him then he just ended his life.
just like that.
no one knew he was really gonna do it.
and when it happen.
everyone was shocked. and well. tears were pouring down their cheeks.

condolences to the family.
well does hope he rest in peace.
but when you just commit suicide.
i don't think you'll live good in the after life or whatsoever.
but still.
rest in peace.

for those who knew him.
like my kor, my jie ah.
mai sam tong liaw okay?
everyone couldn't accept the fact he just left like everyone.
pity Mei Jazv still crying like shit because of him.
why doesn't Alviss gets it that even though he couldn't get the girl.
but he has a whole big family behind him?
and he just left them.

these few days is gonna be like gloomy to me.
and working the part time job just kills.
hope everyone learn a lesson.
to just die because of love.
its just a stupid reason.
he really did the "till death do us part"

i mean i cant forget about someone.
but it doesnt mean that i have to end my life.
there's a whole new big world out there for you to explore.

so live your life well.
life's a blessing.
always a blessing.

am blessed with FRIENDS

2010-12-05T22:23:00.007+08:00

Never knew LIFE would went so well after he left.
3 months of emo-ness proves that I've been a dumb ass for 3 months.
and the plan to stop studying and go over to UK.
UK will wait for me :)
Oh well. now life's better.
WAY BETTER.

I don't know what i did to deserve friends and a better life like this.
It's a blessing i get from God.
a blessing to know each and everyone of you in my life.
God gave me everything i need.
Friends, family, housemates, ka-chang and MAD outings.
now only I realize how much He had given to me.

I've known so many people in this sem.
like SO DAMN MANY OF YOU.
you guys light of my life.
am so happy I get to know each and every one of you.
to me.
all of you are my bros and sis.
MAD love you all ♥

click their names.
its their blog links :)

Mango Yvonne Yang

ini za boh ahh.
first time i see your name nerh.
i dunno how to say it out. lol.
but so happy to know you sayang.
i finally found a kaki.
whose like me!
MAD trips. MAD outings.
listen to the same songs.
gossip like crazy.
drink like crazy. xD
we almost had the same problems.
and we work it out together through it :)
we both must jia you kay babe.
jia you get a better bf.
get a better life.
and get more money to spend. HAHAHAHAHA.
but you cannot spend already since you have tons of clothes!!
tomorrow zo kang lor.
2 weeks fast fast we gao dim then we can go happy liaw :D
MWACKS. hearts you babe.
because you listen to me and comfort me when i needed someone :

Denise Justine Lee

where to start?
I've got to say.
your one babe i talk to the most.
we can talk 12 hours non stop.
but i got jealous.
you've got a bf and i don't.
you spend your time with your bf more than me that was why i was so upset at a time.
when i needed to talk to someone you weren't there.
i got so upset.
remember i cried for you love?
but oh well.
it's all good now.
we still can talk for 12 hours still.
or counting....
you were one of my babes i sibek care the most.
but now i trust your bf would cover it up.
take care of you.
i'll leave it all into his hands then.
and you know if there's anything.
i'm always here for you kays.
hearts you babe.

Chew YinLi & Yucca Yew

YOU GUYS ARE MY MOST AWESOME HOUSEMATES EVER!!!
never thought this sem we all would so close right? hahahaha.
plus YinLi gonna graduate next sem.
i sibek mm sek dak you laaa sayang.
i always kacau you d or vice versa.
whose gonna steal my ruffles edy? xD
whose gonna make breakfast for me if i wake up late?
T.T
when i've got problems i always talk to you as well.
really mm sek dak.
Yucca is still gonna be around.
when you graduate i hope i'll be still okay.
then yucca is gonna gt irritated by me xD
Yucca ahh. bawa your friend connie back here often nerh.
she's fun to be with also!! :D

Goh Bee Kee

UISEHHH BAOBEIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII.
we first sem know each other till now weh!!!!!!
hohohohohoho.
you ahh, liang yee ahh, wei keat ahh, si ying ahh, maria ahh, ji hui ahh.
UIISEHHHH.
when i emo sibek gao lat that time.
you guys pull me go see fashion show la.
eat the curry chicken bread laa.
then always go CC laa.
go da pool laa. xD
4am yamcha laa.
eat dimsum laa.
xD
you guys are one gang who know how to enjoy.
and study also xD
always tell me.
BU YAO EMO NERRRRRRRH.
:)
sibek sayang you all.
sorry harr that day didn't go da pool with you all.
see how you all finish exam le. got free time yumcha kays?

Sandy Chong

sandy babe.
i've known you for almost a year ler.
to me. you were the wild kind.
but now.
so guai le horr.
hahaha.
wanna thank you babe.
whenever i go down kl and needed a place to stay.
you would let me stay.
and go hang gai with me.
club no need say ler. :)
remember how much you couldnt let go the ex?
i think i scolded you.
so sorry if i did.
but now.
i dunno whats the relation.
but Daniel.
she's a great catch.
don't let her go kays?
take care of her for me :)

Yoanne Ng

babe.
your one i admire the most.
pretty and ambitious.
you went through a hard time too.
and i admire how you gone through the road.
damn miss hanging out with you babe.
super miss.
and thank you so much as well for letting me stay wherever i needed a place to stay.
even though im not suppose to stay you also say can.
hearts you so much babe.
hopefully can meet you again.
since the last i went KL didn't meet dou you.
and you were sick .___.
get well ah babe.
don't always sick.
you need your energy to do a lot of things.
mwacks.

Kong Long gang

OIH!
kong long satu gang.
since Chloe left.
we all well of course were sad.
but little did we know.
because of chloe.
i get to know you guys.
one crazy gang.
within 30 sec's the dish is gone.
._____.
hahahaha.
thanks for letting me tag along to Kuantan to pay Ah ma a last visit.
and thanks for lettng me join the BBQ as well.
you guys can really EAT!!
wait you guys back we all hang out again kays?
Hearts. ♥

Moral Campaign Gang

WOOHOOO!!!!
you guys are awesome!!!! :D
all the lim jiu kaki here. hahahahhahahaha.
well. moral drama was a success!!
wouldn't be a success if wasn't for each and everyone of you.
the BBQ too!!
so sorry I got mad the other day.
am still trying to control the temper.
club no need say also.
all of you damn sporting d lor!
since louis cadang.
so new year we go ipoh celebrate okay!!
hearts each and everyone of you :)

Christian Fellowship

this is one God's family.
without you guys.
i really don't know what i'll become.
i'm still trying to change the bad habits of mine.
to get more closer to God.
well. i pray every night now.
slowly improve. xD
thank you for letting me help out in the Christmas Night.
love you guys.
can't wait for next sem for CF! :D

Sim Jlun & Eric Goh

nahh. dedicated one post to you.
your one god damn good bro i know.
tarak take picture with you before so tarak put harr.
so i didn't match wrong you and denise.
haha. happy lor now. ada leng lui gf horr. xD
wait you balik next sem la bro.
sibek miss hanging out with you.
and the eric faggot no need say laa.
chihuahua. xD
thanks eric for listening at times.
but still. your a faggot that won't change. hahahaha.
work properly alright.
get rich and belanja ice cream cukup xD

as well for the others i didnt mention.
you are all my lovable friend as well :)
each and everyone of you means a lot to me.
a little thing you do.
a little thank you.
means a lot to me :)
see your name up there in the header?
this means how much you mean to me.
every single one of you.
even for those i didn't put in the header.
I'm happy to know you in my life.
like i say.
each and everyone of you are important to me in my life.
even though i met you once in the ktm.
or talk to you in a public toilet.
haha. i know its dumb.
but every people i meet and know.
im glad to know you in my life.

For those whom you and I know who left this world.

they are in a better place.

looking down at us.

waiting for us.

bless us as well.

I've lost 3 great people i know in my life.

my granny, my cousin and my friend.

and they are all great people we know.

you left a great memory for us.

and you left some people a hole in the heart.

but we would always remember you.

we miss you.

life's a blessing.
live it well guys.

♥ xoxo ♥
Felicia.

Moral Campaign & Christmas Night

2010-11-28T15:28:00.016+08:00

due to my not enough time to blog.
have to combine post liaw. haha.
am sooooooooooooo freaking tired .____.

MORAL CAMPAIGN

moral campaign was a success. everyone laughed like crazy!
and that's what we wanted :)
friends are awesome when you've got a super big group like 35 people??
yea conflicts happen like shit.
well. shit still happens.
but screw it.
those people who wanted conflicts to continue happen.
ask them go dai please.

only happiness here,
others. shoo shoo.
MAD crazy friends.
credits to ah mok's DSL-LAH. :D

i think the camera focus on the wrong thing. haha.

emo-es??

this is FIDO! our number 1 host of that day :D

this is JJ. thanks to him for making this everything happen.

yea. ignore my ugly face.

group picture!! everyone's inside!! except one group.
ahhh you know who. ignore them :)

everyone is listening to me.

except this guy. =="

ini budak pattern banyak =="
Jacky zai tayar big tuh :P

epic :) love you guys.

thanks for making everything happen.

you guys are awesome.

and bbq is still on monday night.

attend okay!! :D

CHRISTMAS NIGHT 2010

alright. its Christmas.
what do you think about when you heard about Christmas?
Turkey, Chocolates, Pudding.
haha. am stealing the emcee's lines.

Before it starts..

me doing the flesh wounds. :D

my artwork. :D

see!!!!!!! so many people!! :D

kesian ah pau they all have to stand nia :)

the cf camp tee. i want one. T.T

the drama team.

the choir team.
sad ahh the mime team didn't take group picture ehh.

Mary and baby Jesus.
Jesus is a nigga!!! kidding :P

During the Act..

and it ends with a success!! ...

this is what i like about CF.
everyone's all SMILES!!!! :D

and CF has the most epic fail people in the world :P
a.k.a. Kyle Tan hahahaahaha.

ended with a prayer.

thank you guys for making this happen.
thank you Shu for organizing it.
thank you for the drama team.
thank you for the choir.
thank you for the mime team.
thank you for the audiences for your attendances overkill.
thank you God for giving us this opportunity to serve You well.
thank you for everything. :)

life is a blessing.
i never thought i would be this happy, this mad crazy, this busy in this sem.
life is full of surprises.
learn to never look back.
and gain experiences from the mistakes we've made.
life is awesome guys :)
live it well :)

busy woman

2010-11-16T13:13:00.003+08:00

SMILE everyday because everyday is a good day!! :)

*eh-hem*
i have just realized my time is seriously not enough!!
I NEED MORE TIME!!

Today - hantar moral assignment, moral mid term.
Tomorrow - morning breakfast with CF, practice session for EN, 35people coming over my house for moral campaign discussion.
Thursday - go register undang examination
Friday - heading down to KL till Sunday
Monday - moral campaign discussion till Tuesday
Wednesday - Moral campaign!
Thursday - Pengajian Malaysia test 2
Friday - EN!! CF Christmas Night!
Saturday - Undang exam
Sunday - church then RELAX??

following days still got plans.
FUOH. i have no idea i got this pack of a schedule.
MAD.
but i like. xD

but seriously everyday got stuff to do.
wahh. this sem hebat!
i fully utilized all my days!! :D

naise.

Happy Birthday Jia Yi!! :D

2010-11-15T23:59:00.009+08:00

fuoh. i have to tell you guys.
im busy like CRAZY!!!
i got so many things to blog about!!
its either i have no time or no mood to blog.
but usually is no time lahhh.

well. wanted to blog about Chloe's funeral and stuff.
but ini SOH YING YING already blog about it. sooooooo.
for you people wanna know what happen and stuff.
go visit her blog post Chloe's Funeral at Kuantan which i already link it up for you guys. :)
seriously i look so damn fugly in all the pictures. T.T fml.

well well.
this post is dedicated to Jia Yi!!
da birthday boy!!

he didnt let me take a decent photo of him. so bo bian.

sooooooooooooo.
after our MAD moral 3 hour lecture class which ends at 8pm. FML.
we all went steamboat and BBQ!!
we got there first before the birthday boy and the others.
sooooooooo. we cook and EAT FIRST LAAA.

ini za bo sibeh tam jiak.

i tell you guys.
this gang horrr.
WALAOOOOOOO.
sibeh kiet lor.
all like dinosaur like that makan you know.
3 tables of steamboat and bbq.
imagine how much we had for it.
countless amounts!!

Pui Yee, Lin Yun and Jia yi with the weird face. lol
and there's our two chef's! Sotong and Jeff! :D

see i told you she sibeh tam jiak lor!!

me is loving me starbucks t-shirt. ignore my oily face. thank you plox.

ying ying damn kelian larr.

Jia Yi got teh knife liaw. hoho.

wish wish wish.

GK epic fail. =="

well. exhausted day indeed.
got paiseh twice in a day.
because of something i found out.
i am sooooo gonna stfu liaw.

anyway. i had fun with you guys.
keep "kiet" here and there.
with the "pigu" and the "bu nen"..
hahaha. epic. damn epic.

well. all the best to all of us whose having moral exam tomorrow. :)
i shall continue my moral assignment then head to bed.

mad love the people around me.
xoxo.

Chloe Chiang Wei Shan. we all will miss you deeply.

2010-11-08T00:10:00.006+08:00

za bo ahhhhhhhhhhhh.
why you left us so early. :(
its so fast and so soon.

you know you left ah ying ying crying so kelian you know.
you left us all so sad.
haih.
i seriously dunno what else i should type.

remembering the first time i met you.
was having steamboat at uncle's house!
that was how i met you!!

see ah ying ying so happy with the vege fan thingy.

and you were cutting dunno siami for us to cook.

i so regret i didnt took a picture with you!
maybe its because we talk too much till we forget?

remembering a lot when i talk with you.
with a lot of things!

remembering you came over my place.
and we talk till i dunno what time.

remembering i went over your place.
i can't stop admiring your Ayumi CD's.

remembering we talk on the phone.
for God knows how long.

remembering how you comfort me.
when im sad or down or emo-ing.

remembering your telling me.
who your crush is and what happen.

remembering all those back.
makes me smile and cry again.
i really cannot believe your not here anymore.
your always a dear loved sis to me.
ALWAYS.

When i heard the news.
i was so angry at the driver who knock you guys down.
but now getting angry at him doesn't seem to matter at all.
kept asking Lin Yun about you.
to know how you doing and all.
she kept me update all the while.

i feel so regret that i didn't went down to see you.
that was the most regretful thing.
i should have gone down to ipoh to see you.
i dunno why but i always know that your gonna be alright.
that your a strong person.
and you always were.

but i never knew.
until today.
that i realize that your not here anymore.
but your always in our hearts forever.
we love you, Chloe.

when i saw the pictures Lin Yun send to me.
i couldnt stop crying.
i mean.
what do you deserve to go through all this.
your not suppose to be suffering.
the time i saw the pictures.
i sibek sim tia.
really really sim tia.
*sigh*

with all the machines plug here and there.
walao.
heartbreak.
but now your not suffering all those anymore.
it's a good thing as well.

i sure miss your smile.
and the things we used to talk about.
i remember the last time i saw you was in tesco KFC.
talk for i really dunno how long.
seriously we really can talk d lor.
now no more d.

want talk to you about so many stuff also cannot edy.
its just so......sad.

the taeyang tin can drink you gave me ahh.
still here nerh.
am so happy when you gave it to me.
then you intro tokio hotel to me d!
i always thought we can go see them one day you know!!
plus the craz you have for adam lambert.
and im like why you like gay people d.
yish. im bad lor.

but i really 不敢言 lor.
i mean who doesnt.
like what jia yi wrote.
you keep telling us who break your heart,
but now your breaking our hearts!
really sim tia i lost you.

even your brother so hiong wanna track down the driver okay.
see. no matter how you guys fought.
he always love you d.
even though he said he didn't say it to you.
but deep down he does love you a lot.

well.
you will be dearly miss for everyone.
i really emm se dak you.
but God does His things in a way everyone doesn't get it.
and there always a purpose behind everything He do.

wait for us to get there to see you okay.
hope your family would stay strong for you too.
you left them crying real bad i think.
if you could.
you sendiri go see your facebook wall.
flooded with comments.
see sooooo many people support you, love you.
you left your gang of friends with a very heavy heart for them.

but still.
you will be truly miss as
a great friend.
a great sis.
a great daughter.
we all miss you Chloe Chiang Wei Shan.
We love you :)

rest in peace love.
love you so much.
xoxo.

awesome days with awesome friends

2010-11-05T22:27:00.015+08:00

hey you people!!
so sorry for not updating.
i know some of you been asking me where's da new post and stuff.
well. im gonna make 3 post!!
but not in a day laa. keesiiao merh.

been very busy lately.
like seriously =="
with all the halloween parties and mid terms, assignments, and friends hanging out together.
time wasn't really enough for me!

well this post is all about the halloween events.
it is like so cool!
you get to dress up and stuff.
mostly all the pictures i already uploaded up to fb laa.
but still of course need to blog about it!
my blog is like half dead ._______.
so sorry bloggie :)

well. went KL shopping with Yucca and LC.
and we had awesome free FOOD.!
wasn't free la. got voucher so count it as free. boleh tak?

we were having it in the FEDERAL HOTEL yo. :D

got the taeyang international album liaw.hohohohoho.

and so the night of HALLOWEEN BEGINS.
in UTAR....... .__________.
but i must say, the decorations are epic. imba.
naise :)

the gang of ghost

Vanness and Edwin

my babe Yvonne and LC

the whole gang wear boxers nia! lol.

the maid, the daughter, the bride and the groom.

The Flintstones!! :D

Well it was a haeck of a party.
not bad lah.
DJ mix up the music darn naise.
well. not long after that.
head to MOS for another HALLOWEEN PARTY. nyehehehe.

woo.
awesome.
awesome weekend i had last week.
how was your halloween?!?

stay tune for two more post coming up :)

a new life?

2010-10-17T12:08:00.011+08:00

well well. hi there blog readers :D
so sorry i kinda like didnt blog for so long.
got so much stuff to do and all.

well. im back in kampar.
FUH.
to continue my sem 5.
well long story seriously.
to cut it short.
parents want me to continue.
so continue lur.
i'll do my best :)

and R.I.P to my cousin who just pass away 2 weeks ago.
due to an accident.
*sigh*
although i'm not that close to her.
and i actually havent met her in person before.
but still she's my cousin.
pity my aunt who couldn't stop crying and asking why it happen.
God bless the family. amen.

well. kampar MCD open already.
next time take pictures of it and show you guys alright.
i still can't believe there's actually MCD in kampar.
it just doesn't felt right .____.

alright. its gonna be a long post with foods i had over the sem break.
Don't drool over the computer kays :P

had breakfast beside teh beah :D

nasi sup with daging *sluuurrppppp*

kak eira gave teh raya bisuit :D

nasi lemak with milo kosong and ketupat?

dishes we had in Wan You :D
Mom's second home =="
always had dinner there.

see teh prawn!
its soooooooo freaking BIG YO!
man. my parents bought like two big prawns for me.
didn't had time to cook and eat. sad.

went out yamcha with hometown friends.
was so thirsty that night drank this big glass of limau nipis.
and we saw an audi a4 that night.

nasi minyak?
the kari was damn nice.

went hiking with parents :)

another kind of nasi lemak.

dunno what prawn mee or something. but its damn naise!

nom nom together with church members :)

nyehehehehehehe.
mom cook geh salmon ;D

this is in kampar already.
chi cheong fun?

woke up damn early to have dimsum at 7am. =="

old town pasar. damn gao geh kopi xi KOSONG.
its like bitter to the max but naise :D

dishes had in kampar with my aunt's family and me and my parents.

chikin chop in Red Island Cafe or something.
looks like fried chikin to me =="

look at the amount of sushi we had on teh table .__.

philipoo's eyes so damn scary.

went to ipoh with melvin, shuyi and shumin.
we wen to this uhh. restaurant where they work before.
and the food sucks ==.
well my food.

mushroom soup.

peach tea.

the salt and pepper so CUTE!!

my dunno what shit beef rice.
not naise. sad.

went tesco.

went cheong K :)

my life has been busy like crazy!
thank gawd i haz crazy friends around :D
well. didnt emo anymore.
3 months of emo-ness is enough haha :)

wanted this style.

but got this style instead. hmm. not bad what also right?
what ya guys think about my new hair? :D

haha. epic.

end this post with a poem.

roses are red
violets are blue
there once was a time
where i loved you :)

till then guys xD *winks*

Decisions

2010-10-02T00:33:00.006+08:00

I hate making decisions.
really hate them.
because i know i'll ended being worst.
so i rather let someone else to do the decision for me.

now i have to make a decision thats big.
which will somehow change my future.

well my appeal wasn't a success.
told my dad.
of course my dad wasn't happy.
i'm not born with brains alright.

talk to dad about it just now.
talk till tears fell.
because no matter how i improve it was never good enough for them.
they cannot see the effort i put in.
i ended up disappointing my parents so much that i felt that quitting study and help them work is the only way.

but i wanna make my own money.
to waste my own money.
to earn my own money to give it to my parents one day.
after so many years of taking care of me.
thats a lot of money you know.

Dad ask me.
what kind of person you want to be?
do you want to be a normal person who works as a clerk?
or do you want to work as a person who has a cert and a steady job and income?
of course if i could. i of course wanted a cert.
to me.
im studying things i dont like.
im studying for the sake of my parents.
and my parents are giving me studies for the sake of me.

i might be a little good at this and that.
but i want to do something i like.
something im good in majoring it.
but i dont see the point where my parents can accept that.
to them. getting a degree cert is like EVERYTHING.

but last week.
my aunt in UK msn me.
ask me a question that hit my mind.
" Do you want to come over to UK? "
first thing i thought.
was my friends.
if im gonna leave malaysia.
im gonna miss my friends.
like all of them.
everyone of them.
but becaue of my parents. i think that it wouldn't be possible for me to go over to UK.

but my aunt talk things to me.
it went through my mind.
and heart.
i have been suffering here.
for so long.
i wasn't happy.
not to say i couldn't get someone i love.
but the whole picture of it.
i've gone through so much stress and depress.
and just realize i have a weak heart.

she said that she saw that i wasn't happy here.
that was true.
its not saying that being with you guys aren't happy.
im happy i had friends like you guys.
but when im without you guys.
im really not happy.
she say that i can go over and start things anew.
i was worried about this at first but slowly think about it.
Why Not?

dad said if i was to go to UK.
he will of course miss me.
UK is far away from home.
and if anything happens he can't be there for me.
but i was thinking.
when i was in need, were you actually there for me?
have you actually encourage me in anything?
*thinks*
NO.
dad. you never encourage me.

you said my results aren't good.
tak kan say waa good great work you done.
well FYI dad.
a little encouraging wouldn't do any harm.
like...
its not the best but try harder dont give up.
something like that can pull up my faith.

you say that going to events like Hillsong and Jaeson Ma is a waste of time.
has you know that because i was in a depress emo shit situation i force myself to go to these events so i can find back my faith?
sometimes you just talk things.
i just dont want to say back.
because we youngsters say things aren't right.
isn't it, dad?

now he said its up to me.
whether i want to continue or not my studies.
you already shoot me that i didn't study and i suck.
i already had the thinking why continue waste your money like this.
sometimes dad. i damn piss at you.
because your my dad.
i won't fight back your words.
i just chew them up.
you want me do what, i do it all.

now you giving me this decision.
im thinking.
like i said.
i hate making decisions.
and i made a lot of bad decisions.

i ask God.
to give me like a sign or something.
where does He want me to go.
He hadn't told me anything.

so.
decision.
to stop studying or not?
to go over to UK or not?
i hate myself.
FML.

p.s. : tumblr is up. check it out. http://feliciagrace.tumblr.com/

the last sem break.

2010-09-22T22:50:00.011+08:00

this might be the last sem break i'll ever get or maybe not.
i actually wanted to post a very long post to like my friends.
but now the passion for it is gone.
so well. will write it down next time.

results are out.
well.
almost everyone know i still cant pass it.
the only hope now is the appeal thingy.
if it doesn't pass.
well. maybe you guys won't see me in UTAR anymore.
and i will be stuck here for the rest of my life.
and might suicide in the end.
because no future and stuff.

FML.

went cameron the other day before i came back.
i couldnt have 100% fun.
how would you feel like.
the person you still like.
kisses his gf in front of you??

get my feelings??

it's just darn farking SUCK.

sorry for the cursing.
God, please forgive me, amen.
kthxbai.
*teehee*

don't get my joke?
then shaddup and read on.
cause i joke a lot lately.
till mom ask me to stop talking.

because i haz been talking a lot of crap lately.
nothing is working right with me.
emo two months and counting.
made my period went off.
whole body not right.
my friend whose a doctor say i haz a weak heart.
wooooo.
die faster =="

FML again.

*sigh*

move on to the pictures!!!

alex look naise in these specs and denise lovely as always.

:)

i would like to stay here. feels like nothing to stress about.

went to the Teh Boh kilang there.

must ss a bit d baa. although mood so darn farked up.

ini budak terrorist.. O.O

philipoo! and me and pei syuen.
both their hairs are like FUUUUYOHHHH!!! :D

2 mat lat lou and 2 leng lui's :D

denise, me and philipoo!

3 brudders, wear specs. .___.

ini monkey mana?

nom nom strawberries. yummy!

well. been very busy these few days.
like crazy.....
been working like a mad cow.
staying with parents is like staying in jail.
its better than hell because you get free food! :D

got a lot activities lor.
but all also cannot go,
because mom say no.
i haz a sad face.
~~GENTING TRIP~~
~~PENANG TRIP~~
*sigh*

went mountain climbing with friends.
been very healthy lately.
went early morning jog with dad somemore.
HEALTHY INDEED.

looking at the naise view.

ah bing pura pura fall down. haha.

jia you jia you!! gonna reach liaw!
keep seng ka them like shiat. haha.

sepak kau!!

ah chek have to pull yong han up. haha.

this is like the other part. its Paka!

everyone satisfy reach the top edy!!

everyone happy!! :D
was good that i went out with them.
took my mind off a while.
went back to work staight emo-es.
ayam queen of emo.
can't complain.
hmmm...
._____.

been getting two songs i like lately on my mind.

one is Go Away by 2NE1

one is All We'd Ever Need by Lady Antebellum

well. hope my appeal is a success so i can get back to study.
pray for me kays.
lucks for all those who haven't finish their exams :)

p.s. : was actually on the phone with Denise while writing this post :D

exam time AGAIN.

2010-09-02T19:51:00.003+08:00

today just finish my Management.
left question 4 blank.
25 marks gone .____.

i shall jia you this sem geh finals.
neutral mode on.
after tuesday paper.
i can man man emo 4 months.
gg.
all the best to everyone whose having exams kays! :D

28/8/2010 5:13am

2010-08-28T05:10:00.003+08:00

已要到两个月了

怎么还是为他和他们EMO

难道我眼睛还看不够深吗？

人家没有你的唇在有多开心

张美恩

你够力是一个多亿的人

没人要你的啦

很不想活这样孤独的生活

一直想到自杀是唯一的办法来停止这个EMO

心很痛

心很重

心很伤

心很累

上帝啊

你真的要我每天过这样的生活吗？？

你真的要我每天哭吗？

我已哭了两个月

还不够吗？

你为什么不要给我我想要的东西

你要我等到几时

我都快要EMO死了

你还不快来救我

最痛苦的时候，没人安慰我

最想要人陪的时候，没人陪我

自己一个人哭着，睡不着

每天6，7点早上才睡觉

连现在考试我都想放弃他了

哭到没气

好辛苦

Jaeson Ma Only Love Concert

2010-08-24T16:39:00.012+08:00

woh! so sorry took so long to update nih :D
been busy STARDEE-ing. ==
im not joking.
finals are like around da corner.
parents are like giving da pressure.
how can i not start. ==

some of the pictures i didn't take it yah.
credits to Max Khoo the photographer for it.

at first i thought i couldn't make it for this concert.
because jie jie Esther's send to me the ticket but i haven't receive it.
then the "malas-ness" ran over me. felt like didnt wanna go already.

thank God i went and view the Jaeson Ma Only Love the facebook page.
then there write on the spot got sell tickets!
wooo! terus prepare myself up then follow Shirley go to KL :D

the two emcee's for da night.
one is MY FM Jeff i think.

Ray and his gf.
sweet aren't they :D

we enjoyed alright :D

STARPARK ARTISTS! ! !
their all the Malaysian artists! :D

Pastor Caleb Lin and Pastor Jaeson Ma :D

prayer~

Pastor Joeann Chong is the organizer of this event.

Pastor Jaeson Ma

Pastor Jaeson Ma talked about 3 things.

PASSION, LIFE and LOVE.

PASSION

If you don't have a passion your dying for, you don't have a passion for a life your living for.

What are you passionate about?

Once you find your passion for God, whatever your called to do, do it with the passion for Christ.

All we do, we must do it with PASSION for our Lord Jesus Christ.

LIFE

Love Life

no matter how unperfect your life is, love your life.

God gave you a life, a plan and a purpose.

Live your life to the fullest.

LOVE

Pastor Jaeson Ma's song "love" says it all.
which feature Bruno Mars :D

video took by me :D

Now Hollywood wants to make you think they know what love is.
But I'm a tell you what true love is.
Love is not what you see in the movies.
Its not the ecstasy, its not what you see in that scene
you know what I mean? I'm telling you right now, true love is sacrifice.
Love is thinking about others before you think about yourself
Love is selfless not selfish. Love is God and God is love.
Love is when you lay down your life for another
Whether for your brother, your mother, your father or your sister
Its even laying down your life for your enemies,
That's unthinkable, but think about that
Love is true
Think.

Chorus
I'll put you in front of me
So everybody can see
My love, this is my love
I know that I'll be alright
As long as you are my guide
My love, this is my love

Love is patient, love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast
It is not proud. Love is not rude, it is not self-seeking
It is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs
You see love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, it always perseveres
Love never fails. Love is everlasting
Its eternal, it goes on and on, it goes beyond time
Love is the only thing that will last when you die
But ask the question why? Do you have love?

Chorus
I'll put you in front of me
So everybody can see
My love, this is my love
I know that I'll be alright
As long as you are my guide
My love, this is my love

There is no greater love than this than he who lays down his life for his friends
Now are you willing to lay down your life for your friends?
You're probably willing to lay down your life for your mother
your father, or your best friends
But are you willing to lay down your life for even those that hate you?
I'm going to tell you who did that
The definition of love is Jesus Christ. He is love
The nails in his hands, the thorns in his brow
Hanging on a cross for your sin my sins
That is love he died for you and me while we still hated him
That is love
God is true love, and if you don't know this love
Now is the time to know, perfect love

Chorus
I'll put you in front of me
So everybody can see
My love, this is my love
I know that I'll be alright
As long as you are my guide
My love, this is my love
(repeat)

Passion, Life, Love

I've learnt so much from this.
so so so much.
and Pastor Jaeson Ma kept repeat the same thing.

God Loves You.

even though i can't get the love from the world.
I know i can count on God.
because He loved me ever since i was born.
i just didn't realize that.

God loves everyone of us.
so much that He let His only son died of the cross for us.
to once and for all take away our sins.
It hurts so much to think about that.

Like i said on my previous post.
Life in this sem is just hectic.
but im glad he gave me friends to surround me.
to lend a shoulder to me.
when i needed it the most.
I'm glad to have all the friends i had around me.
love you all so much.

thats xiao kang in the middle yo.
one of the Malaysia artist :D

i am happy for what God has given to me :)

hope to attend another event like this.
it encourages me in a lot of ways :D

for more info and news or pictures
go too this two links.
Jaeson Ma Only Love
Starpark

Hillsong [unite + conquer] in IPOH

2010-08-13T20:55:00.017+08:00

Well...
i have got to say i've learn a lot these 2 days.
and it made me eyes open much more bigger now. :D

At first early morning went nomnom first.
Gin say there white coffee nice wor and it was! :D
i was actually late. like really late.
i volunteer being a helper.
like blurry go and say yes to dunno who call and ask me.
Volunteers suppose to get there around 6am. i reach around 8am?
terrible terrible...

at first we had morning worship.
which is awesome but not by the Hillsong team.
It was Aaron they all.
and their good too! :D
Pastor Lee Burn's sermon was good! giving funny examples which we understand.

then we all divide to different workshops.
me and Gin went for Youth Leadership.
There was Worship section.
i kept thinking i register the wrong seminar.
but when Pastor Josh starts talking.
everything he said was kinda related.
and im glad i went to this seminar.
i learn a lot.

to DROP the things that hold us back.

When you roll with Jesus, you are NEVER alone.

"you don't belong to them, you belong to ME."

"you did not choose me but I CHOOSE YOU"

"you have abandoned your first LOVE"

all these short sentences reminds me a lot.
to STOP, DROP and ROLL.
and move on with life.

and here's Esther on the worship seminar section.

see the amount of people :D

All SMILES!

Pastor Josh
He's only 24 and married!!!
can you believe that?!?!?

dude. he's so happy.
looking at this picture also make me smile. haha

taking picture with Esther :D
She's lovely! :D

everyone getting prepare for the night concert :D
and we people in the hall keep hearing the crowd shouting outside like CRAZY!

see so many people!!!!!!

opening ceremony~

me and Vincy.
i dunno what i'll do without her!
thank you so much sis! :D
and horr. jin suey ohh.
got a super huge pimple on my NOSE! URGH!!!

Pastor Josh giving his sermon.
He talk about his cruise ship holiday.
about cute lil' ton ton and toilet covered up with poo and vomit.
IT WAS DISGUSTING! HAHAHAHAHA.
we can hear the whole crowd went EWWWWWWWW!!!!!!
haha. even Pastor Lee Burns also couldn't take it! :D

4,284 people attend the concert!!!

we are the volunteers :D

me and pastor Lee Burns...

Me, David, Shirley, Shu Yi and Gin.
thank you Gin for the ride if not we also can't go for the concert and seminar :D

they actually wanna go for supper but we wouldn't let them go.
cause we wanna take pictures with them! haha.

yea. i dunno whats wrong with me that day.
super hyped up i think xD

even they do funny poses :D

first night ended. and we all went MCD!!
super duper HUNGRY LA YOU KNOW!!

2ND NIGHT OF DA CONCERT!

we volunteers super lucky.
we stand like front, way front. xD
they throw the t-shirts out through the crowd. i got it edy.
then they say volunteers cannot take.
wtf.
fine. i give other people.
so bu shuang.
sad like mad.
it was HILLSONG COLLEGE SHIRT YOU KNOW!!!WALAO!!! URGH!!!

i stand in front of him so got a lot of pictures of him :D

on the 2nd night the sermon was much more on the theme.
UNITE + CONQUER.

everyone praying for each other.
and we pray for the nation :D

and then we continue to praise the LORD! :D
they sang Yours Forever where the bridge part the music plays and stops a while.
and everyone did the freeze thingy!
IT WAS SO COOL!!! :D

haha. he tired edy!
he jumped a lot! :D
and i told Esther on stage i didnt get the t-shirt when they throw it out.

she really went backstage and find it for me!!!

but sad la. sudah habis. aiyoooooo.

AHHHH!!! I like this guy!!!
He's CUTE!!
he's the PA system fella i think.
Carl/Kyle i dunno his name ahh T.T
but he's cute!! :D

Pastor Josh's face so funny! :D
when i took picture with them.
all of them said the same thing.
WOO! there's a screen in front! :D

waiting their car to go for supper...

learn a lot.

and i glad i came.

we had a purpose everyday.

and i had forgotten how much God loves me.

how much i neglected him so many times.

now i walk back to him to seek forgiveness again.

WOOO!!!!
GOD BLESS TO ALL!! :D
SEE YA'LL NEXT YEAR!!! :D